Tired

After coming back from Moi's important day, felt so tired and giddy that I immediately plunged onto the sofa and lie there like a pig. Haha. And the weather is so damm humid.

Let's talk about today's event:

Reached the marriage of registry with Pb at about 9.50 because Moi said to meet her at 10am. It's my first visit to this place. haha. And we waited and waited for Meiling and finally she arrived. Wah, her dress looks so cute with the ribbon on the side. Finally I saw meiling dressed up so pretty because I always saw her wear the same clothes to work everytime haha (just kidding). chern chern was lying to her that because she was late so they can't go in and she actually fell for it. haha.

We went in and go up to the 2nd level and we wait again before we enter into one of the four rooms. There's a name for every room and I think we went into the 'Cherish Room'. Correct me if I'm wrong.

After the ceremony, got on chern chern's car and went to his house at Hua Kwan Road for buffet. Delicious and there's a very cute Golden Retriever next door and two extremely fierce dogs which I presume to be mixed bred because the fur looks wierd with all the dots here and there and variations of colours.

We hanged around chatting and also spending the bulk of our time playing 'taidi' in chern chern's room which air-con and a fan; it was just too hot to stand it. Actually not my first time playing it but just that I've forgotten how to play since secondary school so Moi had to teach us again haha.

So that ends our happy day with moi and chern chern lawfully married on the 27th of April 2005. Zu ni men yong yuen xing fu kuai le. :)

Haiz

Didn't blog for quite a time, been rotting at home (not exactly rotting because I still do my own stuff lah).

Last friday went to BBDC to apply for my Provisional liscence (weeps :( $25 deducted from my acct). Wanted to book for the practical lesson but ALL APRIL AND MAY schedules are FULLY BOOKED. No choice then I just have to study for my final theory first.

Meet with Shuhui after that at west mall. Bought a pair of sandals and a bag when I start work and had KFC Shroom Meal for lunch. After that travel to Bugis Village to shop again. Haha. It's really a good place to shop considering that you can bargain. I was looking for a checkered pants but after considering my financial status, I decided not to buy it first. haha

Yesterday went for supper with my parents at Bukit Timah Hawker Centre, our favourite hangout place. haha. We talked alot of issues and most of the time is about money. Haiz. It's really dreadful to live in Singapore without money. Like my Dad said, you need to pay once you step out of your house and also my father's damm Blangladesh worker ran away! How unlucky can you be! If he does not come back within 3 mths, $5,000 flown away! Haiz....

I was almost bitten by two stray dogs after our supper. Haha. I got a shock but I can still laugh after talking to my mother about it. haha. This is how it happens:

We were waiting for my father as he went to the toilet. We passed by two stray dogs. One is quite big and the other a small one. They were both resting. As we passed by, the big dog stare at us while we were walking up the stairs. My mother waited at the stairs and I was just feeling bored so I decided to go down to look at the dogs(Why because I like dogs, not wild ones haha). I was just walking past them and the big dog stared at me, and I went to look at the small dog. Suddenly, the big dog got up and started barking at me fiercely that even the small dog got up too. They seem like they were about to bite me. I stepped back, actually ready to run away but during that shocking state of mind, my subconscious was telling me not to run away because they will actually chase after me. Luckily the two guys who was sitting near the dogs; probably who fed the dogs, quieten the dogs.

So I went up the stairs to meet my mother, she too also got a shock haha. The incident was in a flash, I was abit in shock since this is the first time that happened to me but it was quite exciting! haha, am I crazy?

Lesson LearntL Don't approach wild dogs and if you do provoke them, don't run away cause it will make matters worse. The more you are afraid of them, the more they will bite you haha.

Update!!!!

Haven't been blogging for quite a while. I was actually not in the mood to write and also quite a lot of things has been happening so I'm kind of stressed that I''m really tired of facing it, I just do not want to care.

Wanted to apply for the provisional liscence but was unsuccessful (because of my eyesight test) so I went to Optical 88 to check the problem for my glasses. Realise that they had made a mistake in my left eye lens (no wonder my left eye can't see clearly). I think I was also stupid enough to realise this problem after 4 months.

Bought a Ayumi CD since I had already been wanting it for ages.

Today, went shopping with shuhui at Bugis Village. Never been there for quite a while and didn't expect the place to be renovated and some still got air-con. Quite satisfied with my shopping as I bought 2 tops (haha, bargaining with the shop-auntie to reduce the price). They were very friendly and really enjoy shopping there. I was so tired when I went back home but both of us decided we will go back again because we still got stuffs to buy especially I'm going back to work soon. Weeps :(

Hope Moi and Juan are working fine in ADRC. Hope that [a] didn't disturb you haha.
Be back soon. Haha. By the way, is [f] going to employ another programmer?

Why?Why?

Do I look like I'm KPO?
It was actually nothing while we were shopping
Only when I saw the wallpaper on the hp
It's so obvious
Two people in the photo.
I wanted to look at it more clearer.
Rejected straight away
So unhappy and bu shuan
It's very rude
Felt very hurt
Felt that she didn't consider me as a good friend
Everything changed since I knew about the matter.
What's wrong with asking about it?
What's wrong with being curious?
Now I know what's the meaning of curiosity kills the cat
I'm not going to care about anyone anymore.
I hate been called a KPO!
I'm just concerned to know about it!
I'm going to swear that I'm not going to ask anything!
I'm going to keep my mouth shut!
Just pretend to be transparent!
Don't be KPO.
Tell myself that it's none of my business.
Don't stick your nose in other people's business.
They don't want you to know so just stop it.
It's hard to get along if this continues.
I don't wish to probe about it anymore.
If we were meant to be good friends, we are
If we are not, we are not so that's it!

Wednesday Updates

Jane called me on Tuesday Night saying that the Sentosa Trip was cancelled because 2 people were backing out so they decided to watch movie at Suntec.

We had lunch at NYDC with Asikin, Yiting, Jane, Ann Lee. Didn't expect Kenny to come along. All of us had pasta except Kenny who ate pizza. After chatting for a while, Kenny left first because he was meeting a friend, and he gave us $30 to pay for the meal. Actually it's more than enough to pay only his pizza so after paying the bill and a change of about $10(kenny's money), we split the money among ourselves. Haha. (Sharon didn't come because Kenny was not treating us Haha!)

Bought our tickets to watch the pacifier.




The movie was not bad, you'll laugh once in a while especially a muscular man was in-charge of being a nanny to 5 childeren. My rating was 3/5.

After the movie, shop a while as Asikin and Yiting were looking at almost all the shops selling digital camera.

I remembered Jane asking me where I stayed. I told her 'Teban Gardens' and she told me no wonder she kept forgetting because it's some place she never heard before. Haha.

Went back home, took a bath, surf the net and watch Shaman King at 11.30pm. While the advertisement was playing, I took the 'Digital Life'(previously called Computer Times) newspaper and started browsing through. Nothing much only when I flipped to the last page and I was shocked to see:

YU MING'S PHOTO AND HE WAS BEEN FEATURED!

Wow, impressive I would say. Actually it's about his fyp project called Dark Luna (3D game) which was selected to join an international competition organised by some University in Scotland and somemore 'First Singaporean to be selected'.

If you got time, go take a look. Haha. He brings pride to Singapore Polytechnic, to Singapore and also to us! Haha. No doubt he will make it big next time. Haha

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Monday 11-04-05

Woke up at 9am and ate Maggie Mee for breakfast. After watching TV and finish reading manga for a while, started my work to create a website. Spent my whole morning designing the layout in Photoshop. I won't say I'm satisfied with it because my mind was blank as to what kind of design I wanted but overall is still ok.

Went to fetch my Sister from school which is a 10min walk from home. Shouldn't have come out too early from home because I ended up waiting 20min for her to come out.

Had KFC for lunch which my mother bought for us and after that we went to West Coast to purchase a bicycle. It was actually my sister who wanted to buy because she wanted to go cycling with her friends someday(when she meant cycling, it's not just cycling around my neighbourhood, but cycle to far places). Bought the cheapest we can get at the Bicycle Shop but after adding some parts to the bicycle it costs us about $95.

Then my sister rode the bicycle back home while we took bus no 30. On the way back home, we saw her already reached Pandan Gardens. Haha but we reached home first. Haha.

Thinking about going back to work makes me abit worried but for the sake of money there's really nothing you can do, so I will make good use of this holiday and go back to work feeling more energized. Hc, don't be so Stressed arh! Haha, going Sentosa tommorrow, although it's very boring but I guess it's better than nothing right? Haha.

Post Internship

It was a great relief for me not to go back to work on Friday. Had my favourite Wanton Noodle which my mother bought at the market and reached school around 9.45am.

Waited for Ann and went inside MLT 12 to listen to the career talk. We ended up seating at the back on the carpet floor because it was crowded with a lot of people. Ann was busy writing her log book while I was just day-dreaming because the talk was DAMM BORING. After Ann finished making changes to the logbook, we decided to go out(before we were bored to death) and met jane at 3rd level concourse(Hc was still stuck in MLT 12, hehe).

We were sitting at the bench there idling while we were waiting for Sharon and Ann waiting for her LO. It's really nice to see all DMMT students crowded at 3rd level and also saw Gham (our fyp supervisor) and Tim.R. He sat down beside Jane and started chatting with us. He really likes to joke around with us(students) and also (bitch) about the people.Haha. I wonder why he's always so free?

I was supposed to meet some Professor at 4th level (not sure where is the venue) and msg hc that we meet at 3rd level so we can go up together. But she abandoned me!(sops:{) and went off with her friends. So I went up alone and the place was so crowded with people and I went inside the Office to find the place. Actually saw the teacher in charge and some students inside the meeting room as I peeked inside but the teacher started to leave the place but I didn't stop her to ask about it. In the end I went back to 3rd level and waited at the bench for them to come out. (Haha, luckily didn't go because heard from hc it's really crap!)

I was abit mad that mr tan actually wanted us to wait for him until 1PM (and late somemore as I saw him strutting happily at the 1st level concourse to the lift!) when most of the students had already met their LO and went out to celebrate the end of internship. I was really guilty that Jane, Sharon, Pamela, Hong and Ann had to wait for me but no choice.

After that, we went to orchard and had our lunch at an outdoor club (seems to be restaurant to me) located beside California Fitness(recommends from Pam). I ordered Garlic Prawn Pasta. The taste is not bad but my mouth was full of garlic smell.haha.

After lunch went Hereen and Far East(saw aifen and the rest of the group). Chatted a bit before we continue our shopping before leaving this place.

Quite an enjoyable day as we chatted alot about school stuff, internship experience and also about our future plannings. Really jealous of Sharon because she was going to Australia for 1 wk and aifen because she was going to Taiwan. I REALLY WANTED TO GO ON A HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!! but seems that Joreen couldn't go travel because her mum won't allow. Haiz, guess I'm staying in Singapore for my 1 mth holiday. Weeps :( Haiz.

Last Day

Finally, this is the last day of our internship, we are graduating soon and I'm going to take a long break before I start my working life. Today during my MRT journey to Bouna Vista which passed by Dover, I was really wishing that I could continue my study in SP. So carefree, I can slack, can go out with friends after school, I can sleep late and always waiting for my mum to buy me breakfast from the market every morning. But I know that life has to go on, the clock is ticking and things change and this is the fact that I have to accept.

No more carefree days, I need to be more independent and responsible.

Going to eat the $7 Japanese Lunch Set today to mark the end of our internship because I've been longing to eat it since I started to work here(Didn't order it because it was just too expensive).

Moi has been complaining about why didn't we gave her any gifts or Thank You card while we were writing it for the boss. Haha. We are not going yet, maybe for me I'm going for a break but we will still work together so don't need lah right. If you think about it, we gave chocolates and cards during Chinese New Year to everyone except [k], haha and until now have not even talked to him even one sentence! Haha.

Rainy Day

It was very hot in the afternoon when we went for lunch, now it was raining so heavily that the rain was seeping through our windows and moi became the auntie cleaner to help us wipe the water off to prevent it from dripping it to hc comp.

Many people had already planned their trip to go overseas after their internship. So 'xian mu'. Was talking to Shuzhen about it and both of us wanted to go Taiwan. At last, found someone who wanted to go Taiwan but we were just considering so we're not sure whether we will actually go.

Didn't contact with Shuhui for a very long time. She's been quite busy with her study in nursing and working at banquets during weekend so really don't want to disturb her. I think after my internship, she should be free and I'm going to treat her because she's always treating me to lunch and I have not return her the favor yet.

[I stopped writing as the boss ask me some questions]

[back to writing my blog]
I just made my decision to stay in the company while I was talking to the boss. He told me whether I've confirm my decision because there is one more day left for me to decide. I said no, I don't want to think about it anymore so I will work here.

I'm going to have a break after this internship and I have alot of things in mind that I wanted to do. Cut my hair (especially the fringe since moi and hc are always nagging me to cut my fringe), create portfolio (I'm going to dig out my past project and try to improve on it), create a personal website(put my portfolio and stuff). Currently I can only think of these few but if I can just finish it I can really give myself a pat on my shoulder. Haha.

I better pack up all my books before leaving the office, should have bring home one book at a time. Now, I need to carry so many thick and heavy java, jsp, javascript programming books at once.

Tired Day

Yesterday met shuzhen at popular after work. Before that, went inside popular to look for the thank you card. Finally found a card with a 'Thank You' wording in front decorated with flowers. As I turned to the back of the card for the pricing, what $5.50 for a card, are you kidding me? I put it back and look at all the shelves to find a card without a 'Thank you' wording, only flowers decorated on the front and $3.80 for that card. In the end, didn't bought the card and went browsing the book 'Rich Dad, Poor Dad' and started reading. The way the author wrote it was very personal and kind of writing a diary entry. Really like it very much but the price was $17.95 which to me was kind of expensive and considering that I have a lot of library books waiting for me to read. But I will buy it next time round. Haha.

After meeting up with shuzhen, talk alot about the university admission. She applied for NTU too but didn't receive any letter yet. I was already giving up hope since some of them had already received their letter. I think I should just accept the job first and leave the rest to the later part. I'm really tired of thinking about it.

Too bored!

For the whole afternoon, I have been slouching on the office chair surfing net and I came about a website quite useful if you like to know more about Japan.

http://www.japan-guide.com

Extract from the following website:

In Japan there are certain things one does not do because they are thought to cause bad luck. A few examples are:

The number four:
The number four is considered inauspicious because it is pronounced the same as the word for death (shi). Therefore, one should not make presents that consit of four pieces, etc. In some hotels and hospitals the room number four is skipped.

Stick chopsticks into the rice:
Do not stick your chopsicks into your food generally, but especially not into rice, because only at funerals, chopsticks are stuck into the rice which is put onto the altar.

Give food from chopstick to chopstick:
This is only done with the bones of the cremated body at funerals.

Sleeping towards the North:
Do not sleep towards the North beacause bodies are laid down like that.

Funeral Car:
If a funeral car passes you should hide your thumb.

Cut nails at night:
If you cut your nails at night, you will not be with your parents when they die.

Lie down after eating:
If you lie down immedeately after eating, you will become a cow.

Whistle in the night:
If you whistle in the night, a snake will come to you.

Black cat:
There are also some imported superstitions such as the believe that black cats crossing the street in front of you cause bad luck.

In many shrines, temples and souvenir shops, amulets are sold that are supposed to bring luck, safety or good fortune. There are amulets for money, health, love, success on exams, safety on the streets, etc. Small pieces of paper (omikuji) that predict your future are also available. These pieces of paper are tied around the branch of a tree after reading; either to make the good fortune come true or to avoid the predicted bad fortune.

No 92 Bus Driver & my decision

Hc always said that the bus driver who wore sunglasses was very handsome. I think that the bus driver was OK only till yesterday when I saw the bus driver without sunglasses because it was raining did I actually saw that his eyes are actually very beautiful. Hehe. Hc, you have good taste. Haha.

This was a picture of my framed puzzle. I'm missing of one piece [sobs].





Nice? I felt very satisfied after finishing it. It's like a hard work payoff. Haha.

After considering for the whole night and bickering about the damm University Letter, I decided to actually give up going to Uni. Why? Because I don't think I have a chance since those who are in the Top 5% had already received their letter, the JC Students had received their 'A' level results and are now applying for University and the rest are actually just waiting for vacant places in the Uni. I think I'm categorized as the leftover portion, so might as well don't study.

And if I do get in, I need to borrow money from the bank, I need to be able to take the tremendous stress of workload and sucking all the information into my head.

And if I do work, I get my monthly salary to spent it on my favourite stuff, I get to give some money to my parents but you have to handle the stress from your boss or get scolding from your boss.

No money in Singapore is like having no water to drink. Although I will say that friends and family are more important than money, but you can't deny that you cannot live without money. This is how practical life is.

Too bored in the office

What! I'm writing another blog again. Yah because I really have nothing to do after helping juan solve the menu problem and helping moi fold the boxes. Furthurmore, my computer hard disk was making a lot of noise and it seems to boot up for ages that I decided to copy all the files from my computer to my network folder so I can do my stuff on PB's computer.

The boss is always telling me that he will change the hard disk for me but it's already for 2 weeks since we had that conversation and my computer was still lying there sick. Ahyway, I'm leaving soon so I think he don't see the need to change it so quickly.

Since that incident, I realise that although I'm part of class 02, I don't really mix with my classmates. During these last 3 years, I think I was always with Estrina and if we have practical lessons or lectures, I will always mix with Ann and the rest. Maybe I was just not initiative enough or I looked too scary or weird or too quiet to be approached. Haha. I'm just not the kind to be so initiative if you know me.

Anyway, since the FYP project, all of us had not contacted Estrina because she did alot of things that really hurt us all. I realise that she was not a good partner when it comes to doing projects because she was so obsessed with her grades that she will do anything to get her distinction(She was very well-liked by the lecturers)! I think that was how it affected our friendship. I don't mean to criticize her or anything just because she was a foreigner but I really don't like the way she did things. Yiting, Pamela and Hong hong will know what I mean. And one thing I dislike about her attitude is she looked down on Singaporeans. It's kind of difficult to explain why I felt that way but when you get to know her, you will realise it.

Actually, other than projects, she's an okay person but in poly, projects consists the bulk of our school activities and you can't help but judge a person's character when it comes to doing projects.

I think I'm done with my bitching. I feel much better after saying out all the things that I've kept it for so long. I can only say that this is just part of my experience as a human being and you can't deny it.

3 days left!

WHY DIDNT I RECEIVE MY LETTER YET!!!!!!!!!!!

Had the dream again that I received a letter that I was rejected by the Uni. Please end my pain by letting me know the answer. Either I work or study, it's that simple but I just need the letter for my path to be chosen.

I've received letter from BBDC that I passed my theory test but I was not at all excited about it because the news was told to me on last Thurs.

Last Friday, took bus 197 from my workplace to go home. The bus was crowded as ever. I was standing near the alighting door and was kind of pissed off by the Indian girl's frizzy long hair which kept tickling my elbow. That is not all. When the people in the bus was lesser, I started to move to the back. I regretted that move because I saw a young couple cooped at the left side of the bus kissing! OK, that is just the beginning. I found a seat and sat down, saw another young couple who was seating in front of me. Then, the young girl started lying on the young boy's lap and the boy moved very close to the girl(Can't see what they are doing but you can roughly guess). I was very pissed off by the girl's giggling and tried to avoid looking in front. However, I was just too distracted by the girl's giggling that I rather stand up than see them. I really wanted to shout at them 'Digusting' as I walked past them but I didn't. Hello! Today is not valentine's day, and this is not your limousine! Can you please behave in a PUBLIC BUS.

Wonder why teenagers nowadays are so open and disrespecting others. Simply hate the sight of these two inmature, playful young couples. IF YOU WANT TO DO IT, CAN YOU JUST GO TO A HOTEL AND DO IT!

Finally finished my puzzle(but missing with one piece which I doubt is my fault) on Saturday and went to IKEA after that and bought a lamp to be put on my bedside so that I can do my reading at night.

SAD MOMENTS

My heart was aching when I read the blogs. While I was looking through my handphone phonebook, I noticed his number and realised that I'm not able to call through this phone number anymore.

Once in a while, you will be thinking of him and you feel a pinch on your heart because you just can't accept the truth.

We are forced to accept the truth, to carry on with our lives with a heart ache that will always be remembered forever.

Only time can truly heal the wounds that each of us had in our hearts now.

Over

A week has passed and so much things have happened in an instance and we have grown alot since that incident. All of us will remember you when we graduated, when we go out to work, when we continue our lives. We will always remember you in our hearts no matter what.

As the saying goes: "jin tian bu zhi ming tian shi", we must always cherish the days we have with our friends and family, do not always take things for granted. Be it that you are angry with your friend or feeling unhappy with your job, this is just an experience that we all go through and we are happy that we have them to guide us through this journey called life.

We are all looking forward to a better tomorrow. After this incident, I have changed my perspective of life and hope so I think all of you feel the same way as me.